It says what you feel
How you think
What you do
What you wish you could
But what does it steal?
It always makes my soul sink
I heard it and my heart flew
Do you think I should?
Repeating the song
Over and over, again and again
I can’t take it
My thoughts take a turn for the wrong
I refrain…
But the replay button I hit
Music the thing that sustains me
My sliver of life
Hear my plea
My only strife
Forgive
But never forget
Don’t beat yourself up because of me.
Memories are demons of the mind
They keep you in there spell
I feel that I’ve gone blind
Why am I here in my personal hell?
I wish I could push rewind
I’m lying here in a secluded cell
You used to be so kind
The only story left to tell
I thought our souls were intertwined
You left me in sorrowful hell
You don’t even mind
Your last words of farewell
My soul you start to grind
Into the pit of death I fell
Sadly left behind
I hit the gravel
Thought we were aligned
“Go to hell” is all you yell
I am left behind
Now I am a mere shell
Lost means exploring
Finding wonder
Seeing the splendor
I found something I wouldn’t expect
I love to be lost
I’m lost in you
I’m still exploring what makes you, you
Your heart is the wonder
Your mind is the splendor
I found, that I love you
I love to be lost, in you
Everything’s gone
What in gods name went wrong?
The tedium of life continues on
The cost of my soul has been drawn
I’m tapped
Sapped
My life is gone
I’m just a pawn
She said we’d be together
I didn’t expect forever
But over now?
How?
Separate
Desperate
I’ve given up everything for her
I was surely, sure
Now she’s gone
I was her pawn
Now she is gone
I’m all alone
Separate
You left me alone tonight
I sat in the moonlight
All alone
Try to call you on your phone
Silence
Continuous ringing
Like the demons singing
Of my demise
I watch the spirits rise
Silence
My soul turned to ash
I feel the heat of the devils lash
I can feel you ignore me
That’s all I can see
Silence
It’s not just you who does it
Everyone does it
I’m "just like him"
Whoever he may be
I’m a similar guy
Just like the rest
Only difference is,
I love you
I’m the one who tries to stand out
In a pile of “hims”
I’m a generic brand of guys
But I set myself apart
By being the only one who can truthfully say “I love you”
I’m labeled as being just like him
I’m lucky if you say “he’s just like you”
Why should I be different?
I try to change for you
But no matter what, I’m exactly the same as him
I’ll never be, one of a kind
I’m the same as everyone
I try to go unnoticed
But when it comes to you
I want you to see me
I have feelings like everyone else
I am a generic person
A stereotypical “lover boy”
But, I do know one thing…
I am me.
I see you there
Sitting Away
You’re great
The best
I see you there
I want to talk with you all day
I met you because of fate
You beat the rest
You’re my best friend
I want to keep it that way
Although I met you too late
And now you’re stressed
Now you say you wish we never met
Why?
What put you into this state?
You think I’m a pest?
I can’t take it
Half the time we complain and say we want to die
Do you want to start with a clean slate?
Is our friendship some kind of a jest?
I don’t think you would fake it
I’m in tears, about to cry
Is this friendship something you hate?
When I met you I thought I was blessed
Now I’m hurt
Do you want our closeness to die?
What did I do for you to retaliate?
Now I feel you’re stress
I feel like dirt
*Sigh*
How did this initiate?
Are these feelings just repressed?
I can’t say anymore
Nothing left to say
Our friend ship’s something you obviously don’t adore
I can only pray
…
The happiness doesn’t last
Not for any fault of yours
I just know
I’m not supposed to be happy
It’s my fault
It has nothing to do with you
I just know
I’m supposed to suffer
I can’t be cheerful
No matter what you do
I just know
I can’t stay this way
That empty feeling inside
You can feel it
It grows slowly at first
Over time it gets bigger
Steadily it takes control
You lose yourself
No emotion
Not empty though
Just a shell
It spreads its curse
It’s impossible to reverse
The hate is building
Sucks your soul
Hollow now
That’s its toll
Your spirit gone
The darkness is here
What went wrong?
Everyone else is left in fear
What will happen…?
Empty
Ice cold to the touch
Do you really mean that much?
Of course
Sadly, I’m left with remorse
I look up and see you there
Do you even care?
I can’t tell
In my own personal hell
A frozen one
Where I am the only one you shun
Icy is this land
All of which you command
I can’t escape this place
All I see is your face
I’m unsure
Together we are pure
