Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Failing happiness

I want you to be happy

Every time I create a small happiness for you

It fades

It fails you

It’s eliminated by something

Why should I create a happiness to be destroyed?

Even with this question on my mind,

I continue to try to make you happy

The reason is, I love you

I can’t stand to see you this way

The “Something” that’s killing it is,

You don’t believe in yourself

If you don’t believe in yourself,

Believe in me.

Because, I believe in you

fading slowly

You continue to fade

Slowly, I’m losing you, had you for a short time

It wasn’t enough

I can’t force you to stay

But I can’t lose you either

I need you

I can’t stand to see you like this, miserable

I wish to see you happy, at least once

Why can’t you be happy, with just me?

Everlasting

I want you here forever

Next to me

That’s why I endeavor

I wonder if you see

Everything I do

Everything I say

Is to keep me here next to you

Eternal

I don’t know if you can see it

Or even if you want to

But I do

I’ve seen it everyday

I still see it on your face

You love him

He loves you not

I love you

You love me not

An Anti-love triangle

He’s full of emotion

But none for you

You’re empty

Hollow

I’m alone, sad

He will never love you

He pretended he did

Now it’s nothing

You say you will always love him

I WILL always love you

He lies

I speak my mind

He controls you

I weep for you

I wish to set you free

You control your destiny

He can only guide you

To the path

I can aid you to love

My love

My love is forever

His is fleeting

My love won’t make you cry

He can only say goodbye

Only you can decide

Empty

Soulless, Spineless, Empty, Alone

All the things I am

Left with nothing

Started with everything

Hatred, Fear, Spite

All the things people feel towards me

Left with nothing

Started with everything

Love, compassion, caring, respect

Everything I’m left without

Left with nothing

Started with everything

Loved, trusted, together, happiness

Things we had, but lost

Left with nothing

Started with everything

Hated, disgusted, repelled

How you feel towards me

Left with nothing

Started with everything

Him

You want him

I want to take his place

Steal his face

Just to be in your embrace

Why can’t I be him?

Drowning in you

My heart rises above the floodwater that is you

My soul shatters when I see you

The pieces fall into the sea that is you

I gasp for air, trapped in you

The air I so desperately search for is surrounded by you

Suffocated by you

I love you

Love

People’s hearts break

A soul can only take so much

A heart is something that none can remake

Life goes on as such

But not with you and me

I will make it last

I will make you see

We can both forget the past

I love you now

I will love you then

I can show you how

Not like other men

I don’t know where

And I don’t know when

I can’t tell you how much I care

I may only prove it now and again

But it’s you I need

I love you

I hope you know

Our love will forever succeed

But, let’s wait to see how this will flow

Alone

In a room,

Full of friends

But He’s still alone

He may as well be home

He sits silently,

Just listening to the loud conversations

He laughs

Nothing seems wrong

But what does he really feel?

Empty

Alone

Pointless

Maybe even suicidal

He won’t ever tell

He refuses to talk to his friends

He may as well be dead

Why survive in an empty life?

Affection

I need more affection than you know

I may act alone

But I need someone,

You

I need true emotions

Without you, I am alone

I need someone,

You

I was slowly poisoned

You left me, only for a moment

I need a friend,

You

So many ups and downs

You went to him again

I need someone to love,

You

I never knew it

Your love was real

I need someone to come back to me,

You

Wasn’t it easy

You never left me

I need someone to stay by my side,

You

I need more affection than you know

You’ve always been here

I have someone to care for,

You