What I Want

What do I really want?
I couldn't tell you
You all tell me that I should show emotions.
But I've been told that that's wrong.
All my life I've shown nothing.
Now everyone wants me to change.
Well that's not what I want.
I'm MEANT to be alone.
It's not what I want.
But I'm supposed to be alone.
So leave me while you still can.