Bloodied In the Night

These tears will never end the sins
That I hid so well
I wake up with scars on my arms
Clawing my way out of my dreams

My mind hides its thoughts amazingly
How have I not screamed?
Scratch until I bleed
Get me out

Will I ever have another normal dream
Like that night?
Or will I always be trying to escape?
I just want to be able to accept it all

I wake up with blood on my wrists and nails,
Broken lips
Bitten until they open
Every part of me wants out

Give them what they want
They need escape
Before they go mad
Because I'm making them that way

Life With Lyrics

If life had lyrics,
What would yours be?
Something happy?
Upbeat or calm?

Your life's lyrics cannot be heard
By another
For what you feel is yours alone
So why should they be heard by anyone else?

So how can I explain my own
To you all?
My feelings are mine alone
And I can't say everything I think

My lyrics are more somber,
Quiet with meaning
That only stands out to me
Hidden in my own thoughts

Not Guilty

Not Guilty
All angels, all gods
They fell to their knees
As he took over the sky
The night turned to grey
As god fell away
The night when perfection killed,
The sun turned to dark
And our precious, perpetual day passed away.

Broken Glass

If I wasn’t in this time,
This place,
I would laugh away
Laugh away
All the pain
So much pain

If I had another way
Is there another way?
To get away
Get away
Would I stay?
Just another day

But since I’m here today
In this place
I have to hide it away
Bottled pain
How long till the bottle breaks?
Its cracking

Am I just supposed to take it?
Store it away
Tear me apart
Torn to pieces
Am I just a bottle?
Now I’m just broken glass

When Creativity Drys Up

What if we ran out of words?
Everything becomes cliche
Each phrase turns stale and eventually rots
What do we do when the creativity runs dry?

When invention loses its luster,
Art fails to shine,
And literature no longer inspires
How do we keep it flowing?

Am I losing myself?
Everything has its time to die
Eventually I will too
When will I run out of creativity?

I'm already low on fuel
Burning on empty
Toss some emotion on the fire
Watch as my inspiration burns higher

Passion put into art
Many hours of constant work
Ink stains the page,
Paint fills the canvas

Will we all lose this creativity?
Or is it an endless bounty?
Can we all think of new ideas?
There are only so many ideas to be tried.
I wonder when this "endless bounty" will fade away.

Cracking

The ground is cracking beneath me
The darkness I once stood on,
That engulfed me
Held me up so high
Away from everyone,
And everything

The light shines through this smudged glass
Cracked and dirty,
Broken, but held together
Running on this thinnest of ice
Cracking around me
Running

Away from all these fears and lies
Hiding myself in the blackness
In a place as dark as this,
No one can see your face
And you can't see their looks
Of sheer disgrace

This light thats breaking through
Shining like the dawn
Gives me hope,
Because even if I fall
The light will always catch me
And bring me down safely

The finest feathers fall from these wings
Sinking through the cracks
Glowing in the light beneath me
I will fly swiftly
Or fall slowly
Let this light keep glowing

So no matter where I'm going
I'll never hit the ground
And now my thoughts are slowing
This darkness is breaking underfoot
The light stopped glowing beneath
Instantly, I fall and hit the ground

Turns out this safety net wasn't so safe
Every candle burns out
Eventually all you have is wax
All things have their expiration date
And now
I guess this is mine.

Who's the Adult?

Whats the point
In talking to you?
When all you do is yell
And scream like you're three

Why would I bother to waste my time
With you?
You throw things across the room
While constantly screaming at me

Do you notice
The hatred in these eyes?
I try to be reasonable
While you tell me how horrible I am

Why do you think
I'm "plotting against you?"
When its you
Who starts these fights

Have you realized yet
That I'm right?
Did you notice
That I've given up all hope for you?

So good luck when I'm gone
Because this is your last chance
To right these wrongs
After this I won't be back

Of time
You've lost all track
You're acting like the child
And I'm the parent
Always wrong in your eyes
But truly right

Wrenched Away

I Shouldn't have said anything
Because I know how it feels
To have the person you care about wrenched away

I was taken from the one I cared about
Found another,
You

I left one life that I loved
And found one that I grew to love
Only because of you

I won't be leaving for awhile
And the dread
Will eat us away

But
I'll still be here for you
And you're always here for me

But don't think
That because I'm away
It means that I won't come back someday

Sara and Zane

Finally saw her smile
She was wrapped in his arms
So cute

I've never seen her this way
Not longer than today
Had I ever seen her smile

She'd laugh and shrug off the pain
Of life, her troubles and everything that came her way
But not today

He made her happy
The boy who could bring her light
He lays beside me

All tuckered out
From holding her
And dancing the night away with us

He had never been happy
Until he had her
And now

He can hold her,
Keep her troubles at bay
While they just dance the night away

Tingle In My Brain

I write to keep these thoughts from taking over
Over and over
I think how I could brighten a day
Just with what I say

I hope that you like it
I really do
But honestly this pleasure
Is meant for me

A pleasure I wont feel guilty for
Something I'll always adore
I need this pen here
A need that I fear

Pain is plenty
Love is few and far between
Pretty words are all I can say
Do you have any idea what I mean?

I can write what I mean
Or I can write a bullshit lie
It depends on my
Intentions for the day

All I need is a single thought
A tingle in my brain
That would drive me insane
If I didn't write it down for you to see