King of Demons: Chapter 2

-Telling the Family-
Chapter 2

“Where do you think he went, Sara?” Jessica asked panicked. “He could have been killed by demons or he could have killed himself. I don’t know what I’d do without him…” Jessica sobbed.
“Cheer up Jess, he wouldn’t do it. He was just whining. You’re the reason he’s still here, nothing will change that.” Sara reasoned. “My little bro would never do something that stupid, even if he isn’t very bright,” Sara continued. Nate stepped through the blue light once again to find Jessica. He came in just in time to hear Sara’s insult.
“Really Sis, making fun of me when I’m not even here?” Nate retorted.
“Nate!” Jessica yelled running and hugging Nate. She nearly knocked him to the ground.
“Jeez’ careful. Don’t knock me down,” Nate replied hugging her. “I love you….And I have something to tell you. Sara, get Zane. This involves all of you. Technically it involves all three worlds.” Nate said panicked, but stared at the ceiling in thought as Sara fetched Zane. Sara rushed back in with Zane slowly trailing behind.
“Tell us what's going on damn it.” Sara demanded.
“What are you guys talking about?” Zane asked in a muffled tone.
“Father is dead, Sara. Nate announced slightly happy.
“Oh thank god.” Sara replied blatantly.
“Yeah that’s not nearly all.” Nate said. “The old fucker is dead, yeah. But the demons need a new ruler. And so they summoned me,” Nate explained.
“Haha they chose YOU?” Sara scoffed. “My powers are twice as powerful as yours. Plus you’re not the killing type lil’ bro,” Sara laughed.
“Nate, there’s no way you can accept. I mean, Sara’s right. You couldn’t kill, could you?” Jessica asked trying to talk him out of it.
“Guys, they said the world would fall out of order. If I don’t, angels will fall, humans will die and demons will go rogue and annihilate all good. I have to be the one to keep order,” Nate tried to explain. “I want you all to come with me. Live with me in the underworld, we’ll live as royalty, gain demonic influence, make the rules and live as the Royal Exilus Family. Zane you shall take command should I die; Sara you shall live as you please, kill as you please. And Jessica… Will you be my Queen?” Nate said gazing lovingly into Jessica’s eyes.
“Why do you want me to rule?” Zane interrupted.
“If I die, I want a good, noble and worldly man to take my place, and to protect Jessica and Sara. You are the only man for the job,” Nate replied.
“Sexist,” Sara interjected.
“Anyways,” Jessica interrupted to answer Nate’s original question. “Yes Nate I will be your Queen,” she replied.
“I love you so much,” Nate said, kissing Jessica. The love he felt for her burned greater than the molten core of the underworld. He would give up his life to protect her. Nate was in fact breaking an oath he had made to himself; he swore never to follow in his father’s footsteps. Nate was crossing his own boundaries to protect her. He hated it, but he knew she was worth it.
“Yeah, well we have to be there by sunset and its winter… The sun will be down in about two hours,” Nate said looking at his silver watch with a blue band. “Get all your stuff and be here by 6:00. I’ll be waiting for you all. We’ve got serious packing to do,” Nate said, walking out of the room without another word; he was trying to gather his thoughts to prepare for the days ahead.

King of Demons: Chapter 1

Chapter one:
Becoming King

“Let me die,” Nate said to his love, Jessica.
“I cannot provide for you my dear…” he continued. “Find another who can. I'm failing my classes; I just can’t understand the things they teach us. They are useless. Chemistry helps no one, math is “imaginary” and English is naptime.” Nate sighed.
“No, I love you! No matter what, you cannot leave me. I hate it here too, but but... Am I not enough to keep you here?” Jessica cried, arms wrapped tightly around Nate.
“That is a double-edged sword princess. For if I say you are not enough you are mad at me. But if I say you are then I must stay,” Nate replied with a frown.
“You’re saying that you don’t want to stay with me? There’s never anything I can do to make you happy… Why do I even try?” Jessica muttered.
“Triple-edged apparently…” Nate said under his breath. “You don’t get it do you? I'm always so happy when I’m with you,” He said truthfully. “Yesterday when you were gone, I was… I missed you…more than I can possibly say… I may act fine around everyone else, but I really did miss you…” Nate continued on. “But Jess, it’s not about my happiness, I want you to live well, not living paycheck to paycheck with me,” Nate finished with a sigh.
“I...I... I’m not going to care about anyone as much as I care about you!” Jessica cried. “I don’t want anyone but you!” Jessica said holding onto Nate’s hand tightly.
“I don’t care! You need to choose someone else. I can’t take care of you… I need you to find someone else who you can fall in love with. Someone who will always take care of you,” Nate commanded. Nate picked up Jessica and laid her down on her bed. Jessica pulled Nate on top of her.
“I love you and only you,” Jessica whispered into Nate’s ear and kissed him passionately. Her lips mingled with his; her warm lips brought Nate to life, like a spark in the dry grass. He was on fire and wanted to do everything with her. He loved her with all his heart and he knew that if he didn’t get away, he wouldn’t be able to escape his desires.
“Jess…I have to go now,” Nate said trying to escape her kisses. “Let me go, dear,” He said sternly when she wouldn’t let go of his neck. Jessica started pulling Nate down and started kissing his neck. Her tongue danced across his neck. He kissed her one last time and finally pulled away. He stroked her leg and said, “I love you. But now I must go.”
“Why cant you sta..?” Jessica was interrupted by a sudden shake and a hellish black and red glow that ominously swallowed her beloved. “What…Where did you go?! You can’t just leave me like this. And how come you didn’t use your normal blue glow to teleport?!” Jessica screamed to the air around her.
“Jess…What the hell? Where am I?” Nate said in a worried tone.
“Welcome…We think we could be of service to you…” A hooded figure said, emphasizing the word ‘Service’ in a creepy manor. Nate now stood in a dungeon-like room full of skulls.
“What the..? Who are you people…Why did you take me away from her?” Nate said frantically. “What do you need from me?” Nate asked the hooded figure who stood before many other cloaks, who Nate assumed to be demons.
“We are demons, as I’m sure you figured out. But we wish for you to be our king. We want to serve you in any ways possible.” The speaker’s voice boomed and echoed through the giant Great Hall.
“You dare summon an angel to rule over these pits of hell?” Nate exclaimed. “You are all pitiful. None of you wish to take the throne?” Nate said pointing at the red and black spiked throne that was surrounded by molten looking brimstone.
“Your father ruled over us for many years, and none of us have the royal Exilus bloodline that you do... You must take the throne. If you refuse, chaos will befall your human world and the angels will all fall to the demonic power.” One demon piped up, stepping foreword from the crowd.
“I don’t give a damn about the angels!” Nate scoffed. “My half demon blood may keep me alive through the chaos but I have renounced my demon side,” Nate continued to laugh at the idea. “One question though, May I bring humans and angels to safely reside here if I choose to take you up on this offer?” Nate inquired.
“If you do choose to rule us, you may do as you wish, but we ask that they accompany you at all times. Good does not get along well in this place,” the first speaker barked.
“I order that you all may kill any angel you wish, except for the ones that accompany me or any that I deem untouchable. You may not lay a hand on the angels Zane or Sara, as well as the human Jessica. If any harm comes to them, every demon head here will roll. They will all personally face MY wrath,” Nate threatened.
“One more thing your majesty…” the speaker trailed off.
“What is it?” Nate barked.
“Sir the coronation must take place tonight…” He paused again as if he was expecting to be hit with a fireball. “It’s a full moon.” He finished and gulped as if he was being interrogated.
“That’s really cliché,” Nate laughed. “I mean werewolves, witches; they all need the full moon. Demons aren’t any different than the common werewolf?” Nate laughed hysterically, mocking the demons. A roar of angry shouts arose from the crowd and hit Nate like a tidal wave. “God damn, I was kidding, don’t take me seriously. I like to joke. I'm not like my sociopath father,” Nate’s booming laughter could be heard by all the demons in the Great Hall.
“Sir your father was a good man, please don’t make fun of the banished,” a cloak stepped foreword, removed his hood and reached his hand to shake Nate’s hand.
“What’s your name demon?” Nate asked.
“I am called Sid; I was your father’s loyal servant for my entire life.” Sid said.
“I see... Well that’s about to change,” Nate said to Sid. “My father is never to be spoken of by any demon, unless I demand it.” Nate’s voice echoed through the halls.
“Yes sir.” Sid agreed. Nate stepped back and paused. “I will be departing to get what I require and retrieve my allies. I shall be back by sunset. Sid you are to prepare for the ceremony.” Nate ordered.
“As you desire, my lord... Do come back safely sir,” Sid said replied with a bow. Nate exited with a small flash of pale blue light. Nate sighed, “I hate meetings with demons. So damn official.” Nate remembered the harsh training his father put him through as a child. Being a demonic prince had scared Nate forever. “I hated him. I never asked to be part of the damn Exilus bloodline. All I want is to be with Jess… But I have to be king to keep the order of the world so she may live,” Nate muttered to himself. Nate would do anything for her, and now he didn’t have to worry about things as pathetic as high school classes. Nate ruled the underworld; he could provide for his beloved. Nate started thinking about what he would do if she refused to go with him; would she want just a normal life? Would he be alone in the underworld forever? “I have to take my chances; she isn’t just a normal human after all…” Nate trailed off. Jessica was an oracle, after a past life, Nate sacrificed his power to be with her. Jessica then received half of Nate’s angelic powers. She did not receive any of the demonic half however for he was able to keep them. She had been an oracle for several years but had only learned about it in her current life.

Done

The last words you want to hear
Coming from the last person you would expect,
Your best friend wants to die
"I'm done."

Losing you is my worst fear
I can tell you anything,
Over you I start to cry
You have no idea how much I care.

I may joke, but isn't it clear?
You're my best friend
Don't say that your life is one big lie
How do I know that you're still here?

Please don't make real what we both fear
Writing this will change nothing…
If it'll make you better, leave me, die
I'm done waiting for you to go over the edge
Done…

.Blindness.

.Blindness.

God, a man-made concept?
If ever an all powerful being existed,
He must have been blind, for death is all eyes and can see everything
God never looks upon us with pride nor pity,
For he cannot look at all.
God has everything but sight.
God may speak, but he made humans deaf to his tones.
If ever a god existed,
He is as flawed as we are, possibly even more-so.
He may have more strength, more power, but his blindness caused humanity.
His blindness was the creation of us... But it shall also be our downfall.
Humans will be the end of this world we call home.
God (if there is such a power) must be blind.

All Eyes

Death is a featureless face,
Death is all eyes,
It cannot hear your screams,
It may only see your pain, and watch you try to run
It lusts to watch your bones crack, watch you fall limp, lying in a pool of your own blood.
The eyes watch you, chase you, every turn you take they follow right behind,
It seems death is one step ahead of you,
With every turn you make, you're one step closer to it
No one can run from death,
Its all around you, surrounding you with its big, glaring, hateful eyes.
It has no ears to listen to your screams, or even to hear the crackle of your bones when it finally does catch up with you.
No mouth to warn you of your demise, it cannot taunt you, it may only catch you by surprise.
Death has no nose to smell the blood and gore. All Eyes.
No arms to grab you, no legs to chase you, just floating eyes,
The eyes stare directly into your soul,
When its your time,
It devours your soul,
With each soul it takes, another eye is created.
Endless eyes.
Time for me To die,
For all i see is Eyes...

Always There

I know that you're the only one to really care
I swear,
I know that you're always there.
You overlook any flaws i may have,
You're all I have,
Everything I need.
When I'm with you I can be myself,
To laugh or to cry,
Without you I'd rather die.
My true love.
Thank you my dear,
For just being here.

Love Changes Everything.

Love changes everything.
It makes you care for another,
I'd sacrifice it all for you to be happy.
I would rather you be happy without me,
Than miserable with me here.

Love changes everything.
It makes you put your heart out in the open.
I tell you everything,
You can name more about me than anyone else.

Love changes everything,
For you and for me.
I'd do anything for you, and you for me.
We may fight,
But we make it right.
Forgive and Forget.

Love changes everything,
But we never truly forget.
Fights leave scars,
Bandages can't heal all wounds.
Over time we'll heal,
For now the scars remain.

Love changes everything,
But I've forgiven you
Please forgive yourself and me too.
For i cannot live without the things you do.

Hourglass of the Universe.

Turn the hourglass,
As the light fades to night,
The stars fall from what was the ground into the sky
When they hit the smooth surface, they begin to glow,
Illuminating the sky, they fill the universe with beauty

The stars are the beauty in the world.
When the Sun floats back to the earth,
The stars must take their original forms,
The colors of the world.
Each color, each shape, everything that is original
Each one is a star.

Turn the hourglass,
As the sun creeps back to the world below, so do the stars.
Every flower, rock and body of water is a fallen star.
Each fallen star shall have its time in the sky again,
Just wait until the hourglass is turned.
Every star shall fall back into place.

Figure It Out.

I hear that he ignores you,
I can't stand to hear it,
For there are many who would drop everything for you.
But there is one who's heart is on the brink
The edge, this may be his last few moments.
But you won't give him a chance.
You're too focused on an idiot.
All the girls seem to go for the wrong person,
Hurting those who truly care and loving those who truly don't.
If he really does care for you, he doesn't show it.
So get over him.
Because you have a guy right here, who would drop everything for YOU.

Obviously you could both be happy,
But you both sit and sulk
You're both too damn stubborn.
He should talk to you.
But he's too afraid.
And you're too scared to get over a jerk.
It happens in life,
There will always be a breakup or two,
It WILL hurt.
But don't let that ruin your other chances.
He wants to get to know you,
And you don't seem to know what you want.
Figure it out.

Get Creative.

A wordless song stuck in my head.
No notes played,
No lyrics written,
A blank music sheet.

A blank image frozen in mind.
No strokes of a brush,
Not even a line of a pencil.
A blank canvas.

The perfect picture, an empty photo.
Not a shot,
The camera is left untouched.
Empty filmstrips.

Start composing,
Sing to your hearts content.
Start drawing,
Paint until you have what you envisioned.
Take a photograph from every angle you can think of,
Get the perfect shot.
Because if you don't do these things, who will?

"family"

Father - you think you're perfect when in fact you're a terrible, rude and hateful person.
Mother - You act like nothing's going on, nothing's wrong, when really your son hates his life and prays for death to take him.
Younger Sister - You whine and complain getting others yelled at.
Youngest Sister - You're spoiled as hell and you are treated like you're perfect.
And then there's me, the accident. I get blamed for most everything, sometimes rightfully so, but often not. I'm done with all of you. Have fun with this "family."

Just Us

I'm not mad at you...
Not really anyways.
I'm mad because..
Well we can never escape and be alone
We're always around people that i don't care for
People who shall remain nameless
Not because I care if they see this,
But because I don't care for them.
All I want is to be alone with you and our true friends...
The ones we can just talk and laugh with.
Just Our Group..
And I want it to remain it's small self.
Just us.
The ones I know I can trust.

What I Want

What do I really want?
I couldn't tell you
You all tell me that I should show emotions.
But I've been told that that's wrong.
All my life I've shown nothing.
Now everyone wants me to change.
Well that's not what I want.
I'm MEANT to be alone.
It's not what I want.
But I'm supposed to be alone.
So leave me while you still can.

Six Months -So Far-

I've loved it all,
It all started when I kissed your cheek.
I knew that it was you I wanted to spend every day of every week
Everyday before then I would sit and think,
Wondering how you felt, what you wanted and what I could do to win your heart,
But I realized I didn't want to win or to lose…
I wanted you to choose
What you really wanted,
Whether it be me or another who could make you happy
And now,
We're both cheerful
We love each other.
We only need one another.

The Days Go By

Every second counts
I count down the minutes till I can see you every morning.
During the hours of night I dream of you,
My love grows with each passing day.
The thoughts of you grow in intensity with every week that goes by.
Each month we get closer and closer.
And when the years start to roll by,
We can be together,
Always

Love is...

Some say love is a razor that leaves the soul to bleed
I say that love is a flower that creates many new seeds
One love brings more,
Like a sapling may bring a forest

Some say love is a hunger, an endlessly aching need
I say that love is a power that gives strength of armies,
To mere man
To win the terrible battle and see his love again

Some say love is a forceful river, which drowns the tender reed,
I say that love is the sunlight that brings life to the earth
The light empowers the greenery to spring forth from the ground
To bring the air that the creatures breathe

Love is in the eye of the beholder
My eyes must be blessed,
For I see perfection,
I love you

You're Just a Parasite

We just ignore all your lies,
See right through your disguise
Give us a reason to listen,
A reason to show you any kindness
When you act so mindless
You don’t give a damn who gets hurt,
Treat everyone like dirt
Why?
Why should we listen to you?
Because that’s all that you can do
You spread rumors,
Either change, or go away
We have no need for you to stay
So please,
Just leave us,
Quit trying to please us.
Your lies have no effect,
All you are is a slight defect
We can make do,
Without someone like you
Hell, we never needed you
You’re just a parasite to us
So we don’t bother to make a fuss
But now we’re getting rid of this flea
So just flee,
Flee to someone who cares,
Because we don’t.

Shaken Up

You bottled everything up
Now wait for the explosion
Everyone is on your nerves
The anger rising, like never before
Either you let it all out
Or you’re going to explode
Spill your insides to everyone
Or keep it all inside
Either way,
Eventually you’ll snap
It would have been better to let it all out
But now, you only have this choice
Explode now, or later?

Living In the Music

There is no afterlife as far as I can see
Because heaven is right here,
On Earth
You’re right in front of me
My arms wrapped around you, tightly
Swaying gently to the music
Right where I wanted to be
Right here and you’re with me

I don’t care what hardships I have to suffer the next day,
Because we’re living here and now,
Living in the music
Gazing into your eyes, lovingly
Singing to each other
Right here,
Just you and me

I’d suffer through hell to be with you,
Just to see you once more,
Dying to see you
Giving you just one last kiss, departing
But never losing each other
Together,
Always
The music keeps us alive and together.

Self-Expression

The smell of ink fills the air
The words slowly fill the paper
Flying out of the mind and then slowly creeping onto the page before you
Inspiration fills the blank space
And rids you of your boredom
Just seeing your thoughts on a page eliminates worries, troubles and pain
And now you can fill the space they left, with the joy in life.

Boredom

Boredom inspires creativity, so they say
If so, why are we creating ways to rid ourselves of boredom forever?
All this technological nonsense?
Why hide the thing that inspires us so?
Without boredom, I have no doubt that none of these things would even exist
Computer, TV, who needs them?
So go ahead, enjoy your "fun"
Because, I'll stay here and use this boredom to my advantage.

Hero

Why did I have to pull out THIS book?

Why couldn’t I have found a normal book? i could have just scanned a plain old book, absorbing nothing. Why not?

It just had to be this one. Even its cover fascinates me.

Staring at the hard-bound book, not even attempting to read yet. I gaze lovingly at the Chinese pagodas and beautiful flowers.

Just the binding drew me in. And now, I've read every page, but its not nearly complete. You stopped writing, whereas I won't.

You stopped caring, whereas I never will. I will keep loving.

You gave up and now you never show ANY real emotions. You became a shell of a man.

You became the cover of an empty book. you're just begging to have a story, to become the hero.

But now, its too late. When you passed this book along to me, I didn’t know it, but I became the one to live out this story. I became the hero.

So I shall live, learn and love as I see fit. And I shall be the hero of this empty book. My life is now the plot. My family and friends, are the cast. None of which are minor characters.

Each and every one of you shall accompany me on a life’s journey.

I shall be the hero, author of the story of our lives.

I'll take over. But now, I make the rules. My life, my story.

Deathbringer of Joy?

More beautiful words have not been spoken.

Given that you were truly happy, once upon a time.

I now wonder what has slain that joy.

Is it old age that I must put on trial for this horrible crime, murder of happiness.

Anything within my power, to return the joy you so obviously had, I will do.

Or is it I who killed this joy?

Was my birth really that terrible for you?

So terrible as to ruin your life?

Man Behind the Monster

Reading this journal makes me realize, there's a man behind this monster.

Your words, i can truly relate to. I feel your pain and know of true joy. Some of each, you have caused.

But just reading your words shows just how human you really are.

It just goes to show... There is really a man inside this monster.

Leave

One flick of the wrist
And it’s all over for you
All I have to do is drop the match
And watch you burn
This is what you deserve
All you bring is pain

I feel it sinking in
What I’ve truly done
And honestly
I still don’t care
You’re a terrible person
I hate you

I can only take so much
One more word could set me off
All I have to do is flick my wrist
And you’re gone forever
That’s all I’ve ever dreamt of
Losing you

So burn,
Burn like the rest of the demons
Leave just a pile of ashes
Leave me here
I've had enough of you
So just Leave.

When I'm with You

Walking through the rain
All I can think of is you
My memories form a chain
Nothing left but you and me
Before it was all pain

Dreams of holding your hand
Walking through the dark
Your wish is my command
What is it you desire from me?

I can’t wait for when we’re together
I know we’ll be the ones to last forever

So just take my hand and come with me

Chain of Hearts

I thought I’d rid myself of emptiness,
Filled in every hole in my heart,
Fixed all the cracks
I was wrong
There’s one more hole
The size of an abyss
Possible to fill
But not for me

I know what’s missing
Every detail of it
I could fill it in
But it would tear it all away from you,
Leave you with nothing
Even if it was filled,
Someone would lose what I had gained
Impossible to fix this link in the chain,
No soul left to fill this space
No energy to fix this poor place

Empty space
The one last place
Now I feel I’m fading
All my dreams are not worth saving
I will leave you with all I have
Before I waste away
All I have left to say
I love you

Fix my heart and ruin another’s
I just can’t bear the guilt
So I leave you now
You’ll find a way somehow
Just don’t look back
Continue on without me
You don’t need me
Find another… And leave me here
To drown in my selfish sea of emotions

What Next

Your touch is just so kind
Your heart is always on my mind
We spend our nights together
Always saying we’ll be forever
I know you’ve thought about it too
What’s next?

Love is the hardest thing to find
Everyone says that it’s always blind
We spend our nights together
Always saying we’ll be forever
We talk about what we want to do
But will it really happen?

What’s our next step?
I love you
I want to be with you
And only you
You are my source of strength
For you I would give everything
Everything…
For just one thing,
Love

Our next step,
Is to stay together
No matter what stands before us,
To love each other always,
And live as one
Because I want just one thing,
Love

Gone

Took a wrong turn down the edge of my world
Falling forever, slowly getting nowhere
Everyone around me is going places
But I'm frozen
Falling and frozen
When I finally hit the ground, there will be nothing left
But who would care anyways?
The few that do care have no reason to
I mean, what have I ever done?
I am a nobody, falling from the edge of life,
A hollow, soulless nobody
And when it finally hits…
I'm gone.
So don’t bother remembering me…
Who am I anyways?
A nobody.
That’s all I ever was.
And it will stay that way,
Because...
I'm gone.

Fading to the Darkn...

I’m fading
Heart turning black,
Burning away to ash
The charred remains of a soul
That’s all that’s left
Now leave me here
Blistered and scarred
My final moments
Now I feel the most alone
No place that I can call my home
I can’t call this family
No one to tie me to this place
No one…
It’s all your fault
It could have been different.
Too late…

De Ja Vu

The horrible cycle,
Never ending
I've done this a million times before
Walked theses steps,
Across this floor
All alone
I've done this only a million times before
Life is already such a bore
I realize that I’ve done this before
But what the hell,
Doing it once more
Just leaves me in this cell
I’ll continue to wander, aimlessly

A never ending circle
Trapped in this protective shell
Really only a prison cell
Stolen away by my own mind
Locked in the torturous place I call my head
My mind is an iron bound book, never to be read
So it seemed…

I met you
But I never knew
What I needed all along
Turned out to be you
It took some time
But soon, I realized
That I needed you
I was always there for you,
And you for me
Now I see,
I love you
And,
Only you can read the pages of my heart and mind

Friends (finally finished xD)

The angels sing,
Of what the devil shall bring
The future may never be found
The past can’t even make a sound

Friends live on
While our enemies are gone
I now know what i was looking for
The only thing i truly adore
You,
My best friend
Some may say till the end
But I will never let it slow
I won’t ever let go,
Of you

Years we lost

So many years we missed
If only we had known
That true love is in eachother

So far away it seemed
I thought life had no meaning
I painfully waited for the end

But now, I can't wait for each new day to begin
Each time I hear your voice,
I can feel my heart rise

My emotions go beyond the sky
My love reaches the limits of space
I want to wake to see your shining face
Even now, i want to be in your embrace

So many years we could have known true love
so many years we spent without someone
But now, I have you
And you will always have me

Colors

Not everything is set in stone
Not every king is bound to his throne
We can make the change
Are our goals within our range?

Not everything needs to be in just black and white
Pick your battles and choose your fights
Not every enemy is worth the war
Is it really worth fighting for?

Ask yourself what’s right
A perfect view isn’t just black and white
Each color is a unique state of mind
If you look to your heart you will surely find
You’ve known what’s right all along
You’ll find, you were never wrong

Every heart has the color, but you have to make it shine
Don’t just follow the crowd in a straight line
Don’t pretend that you don’t see
It isn’t a mystery
Do what comes naturally

Forever, or a day

My dear,
I'll make it very clear
I love you
Do you know how much I care?
Do you see how much I miss you?

Whenever we're apart
I'm thinking of you
I need you in my life
So please stay
Even if you're here for just one day.

Always

I may not say it aloud
But inside, I'm dying to scream it to the heavens
I love you
I can't always let you know it
Even when I need to show it
But I will always be true
Because I love you

The Desert Flower

In a sea of sand, sits a lone desert flower
Untouched, pure
My heart belongs to her,
The prettiest flower of them all

Being with her makes the worst days, perfect
My heart belongs to her,
The most wonderful flower of them all

She is perfect,
The most gorgeous flower of them all

She is, the desert flower

Take My Hand

Instead of wasting my time
I shall take your hand and make you mine
Others may claim their love
But mine is clearly true
I love you

Instead of wasting your time
Take my hand and come with me
I never know when I’m right, or even when I’m wrong
This is the exception
I am right

Instead of wasting our time
Take my hands and stay with me
My love is true love
That is the way it shall stay
True, to you

Three Simple Words

I love you
Three simple words
But the phrase means more than it seems

I love you
It’s thrown around
To others, it may mean nothing
But I can honestly say I mean it

I love you
I say it because I care
I want you to know,
That no matter what,
I’m here, just for you

I love you
I think of you as my closest friend
The one person I can tell anything
You are my Queen
And I, your King
I wish to live with you, in our pretend castle,
Forever
Because, I love You

If

If my love was a fire
It would engulf the world in a crimson sea
scorching everything

If my love was water
It would drown the earth
Leaving nothing, but a sea of blue

If my love grew any higher
I wouldn't know what to do
But I would do it all for you

Eternity

You’re never alone
You always have me
I know I’m not enough for you
But I keep you from being alone

I want to be with you
But I will never be enough
Why can’t you just get past this?
I won’t let you be alone

I live to serve you
I could just be your diamond in the rough
But you’re stuck in depression
This is my final confession,
I love you

But even that isn’t enough
To keep you here
With me
The way I wish to be

You run away from reality
You can’t leave
Your world of make-believe
Not even for me,
The one who stood by you for an eternity

Fell For Her

The last I can remember
I had wings
I was an angel
I was sent to earth to protect her
I flew down to shield her
After a while, I was in love

The last I can remember
I had wings
I fell from heaven
I was sent to protect her
I ended up with love

The last I can remember
I was banished
Never to see her again
Or so the gods thought

Now I remember
I loved her
I’m still with her

I had wings
Now they’re gone

I fell, for her

End

Your heart scorches me
It burns my soul to ashes
Your love is a consuming fire

The final petal falls
A single scarlet rose
This is coming to a close

Its time for the ending to the show
Let’s take our finals bows
Time to go our separate ways

The closing to a song
Do you understand its meaning?
Make sure we don’t get the ending wrong

You’ve left a poet with no words,
No more rhyme
He won’t let it end the way he intended

My Princess

You fell from heaven just for me
But you call me angel
You are the only one i wish to see
But you call me angel
I know that you will never agree
But i will call you princess

Wrong

Before, you could see right through me
I thought you loved me
Turns out I was always wrong
Now it seems you barely knew me

Before, you could see into me
Ashame, I loved you
Turns out I was always wrong
Now it seems you knew nothing of me

Before you were staring past me
I can’t say that I still love you
Turns out I wont be wrong anymore
Now it seems that you don’t care

Last Chance

You know I don’t mean to hurt you
But everything you say gets to my heart
I know all of the things you’ve come to fear
And all the things that you hold dear
All the lies you’ve come to believe
Your sanity is something, none can retrieve
I’m fading from your life
I’m falling out of view
Only you can pull me back
This is your last chance
Will you take it?

The Reason

What’s the point of it all?
Why should I keep going on?
You say you need me to stay
Give me a reason

Soon I will take the final fall
The last chance before I’m gone
It goes on like this everyday
Give me a reason

Eventually I will pass this wall
I am no longer your pawn
Today was the last day
Give me a reason

Solitude

Even when you seemed so kind
Evil things were on your mind
All those things I put behind

But not now, not today
For what you did, you have to pay
“I hate you” is the last thing that you say

I’m not sure that you understand
This fight with you, I can’t withstand
I cannot follow your one command
To stop loving you

Betrayed

You know that it meant so much
I just wanted to feel your touch
But you always seemed so kind
I wish I could’ve read your mind
Why did you turn against what we wanted?
Now it’s you that will be forever haunted

It may take me a thousand years
But I will make sure that it sears
I will make sure that it leaves a scar
And I may take it way too far
You want to go back to how it was
You cursed me without a cause

You couldn’t even feel my touch
I never even meant that much
Closest to you and still, I was hurt
We were in love, but still you revert
Revenge is mine to take
It is you, I now forsake
Betrayed

You and Me

If you could take the hands of time and go back

What would you change?

Would you change meeting me?

Would you erase me?

Or would you keep me, as I am?

If I had the power to go back

What would I change?

Would I change meeting you?

Would I erase you?

Or would I keep you here, with me?

The answer is obvious to me

I would keep you here

Forever

The way you’re supposed to be,

With me

But is your choice the same as mine?

Do you want to be with me?

Forever?

The way I want to be

Just You and Me.

Without You

The pain

I can feel it in my heart

You say we’ll be together soon enough

I can’t wait much longer

My heart melts when I talk to you

The pain

I can feel it in my soul

It’s been too long since I’ve seen you

I can’t be without you

My soul shatters when I feel your love

The pain

I can feel it in my mind

I know I will see you soon

I can’t survive without your touch

My mind yearns for you

Wishes

The one thing I wish, is for you to be happy

I want to see you smile

All I ever see is you frowning

I see you upset

I see you hurt

I feel your pain

All I ever see is you wishing

Why can’t those wishes come true?

Wings

I began to fly

Into the hidden sky

The angels love says goodbye

With the angels last sinking sigh

The feathers fall around me

The magic, can no longer be

I did all this, so you could see

But now, neither of us are free

We are two halves of one

We will never come undone

Our love has just begun

The angel holds her

They are both sure

Together they are pure

He takes her hand

Together, they take their stand

They kiss

The gunshots pour down, but miss

Loves light protects them

True Face

People pass me

People think they can see

But who am I?

I could tell you

Then I have to take you through what I’ve been through

See my face?

Not a trace

Just my mask

To see behind complete a task

Befriend me

Defend me

Don’t pretend to be

Too Far Gone

You tell me to leave

The tears on your sleeve

I don’t want to disappear

Im left with only fear

That I won’t see you once more

You drift away like seashells on the shore

I want you here next to me

If only you could see

(work in progress) Friends

The angels sing,

Of what the devil shall bring

The future may never be found

The past can’t even make a sound

Friends live on

While our enemies are gone

…

Stalked

He’s following along

Never stopping

Hunting his prey

His footsteps ringing behind you, like a gong

Along he’s hopping

Stalking you all day

I won’t allow him to follow

Your friends will protect you

No matter what

In your misery you wallow

You think he will take you

Not if we have a say in that

He can’t get you, if we are there

You tell us how he touched you, it won’t happen anymore

Your friends are here

He’s always there, at you he stares

No more fear for you, anymore

My dear

If he keeps it up

He won’t last much longer

Not with us around

We might beat him to a pulp

And with each hit you grow stronger

Our fists will pound…

Shattered Soul

My fallen pieces lie here in wait

They all are seeking their fate

She smashed me to bits

With one of those hits

I can’t stand to see

What you’ve done to me

Can anyone put me together?

Real

I need true emotions

I fear the lies

Your emotions were true

But I couldn’t tell

I need true emotions

We have our ups and downs

“I love you” came out of the blue

My soul is stuck in hell

I need true emotions

Your voice brought me back

My thick head, you broke through

I was a mere shell

I need true emotions

You were always there

I just want to talk to you

My heart slowly fell

React

What would you do if I said it?

Because I feel it

“I love you”

You hesitate

What would I do if you said it?

I don’t know if you feel it too

Do you?

You said it

Why don’t I feel sure?

I feel it and I trust you

But do you really love me?

I freeze

Why can’t we react?

If we do trust each other,

Why can’t we just be?

We’re together now

Over the Edge

He pushed you away

I pulled you in

You say you love me

I know I love you

You attempt to push me away

I hold on

You can’t keep me away

You say that I’m no different

That I’m the same as him

You still push me further

I want to stay with you

I can’t get closer to you,

If you won’t let me

I’m alone without you

You’re alone even with me

You say your heart is in my hands

You stole my heart

I can’t get it back

I don’t want it back

My heart is yours

If you don’t trust me

I don’t want to be with you

I trust you fully

Can you do the same, for me?

Don’t tell me this is just some game.

I trust you,

Even when you don’t trust yourself

I have no reason behind it

But I do

I’m just drawn to you

I just want you to be happy

Even if I’m not

I just want you to see

That I am just me

I’m not him

Souls

Carefully I hand you my soul

And you hand me yours

Was this always our goal?

I think about you and my heart soars

I break away from you

Shrouded in dark

But I never meant to

You are my ark

The light shines in your eyes

You kiss me and we fly to the skies

When it’s over a part of me dies

We are intertwined

Our souls are aligned

Which one’s yours and which is mine?

Does it matter?

And then… I shatter

Who did this?

Is there something amiss?

My soul falling into an abyss

Blinded by the break

Awestruck unable to take…

A breath

Left with only cruel, cruel death

Blind

Locked in the Dark

Trapped in the mouth of the shark

Silent as silent can be

Nothing around that I can see

Suddenly a blinding light

My eyes struggle and lose the fight

Totally blind

Nothing at all I can find

The light has scorned me

No one could have warned me

Music

It says what you feel

How you think

What you do

What you wish you could

But what does it steal?

It always makes my soul sink

I heard it and my heart flew

Do you think I should?

Repeating the song

Over and over, again and again

I can’t take it

My thoughts take a turn for the wrong

I refrain…

But the replay button I hit

Music the thing that sustains me

My sliver of life

Hear my plea

My only strife

Forgive

But never forget

Don’t beat yourself up because of me.

Memories

Memories are demons of the mind

They keep you in there spell

I feel that I’ve gone blind

Why am I here in my personal hell?

I wish I could push rewind

I’m lying here in a secluded cell

You used to be so kind

The only story left to tell

I thought our souls were intertwined

You left me in sorrowful hell

You don’t even mind

Your last words of farewell

My soul you start to grind

Into the pit of death I fell

Sadly left behind

I hit the gravel

Thought we were aligned

“Go to hell” is all you yell

I am left behind

Now I am a mere shell

Lost

Lost means exploring

Finding wonder

Seeing the splendor

I found something I wouldn’t expect

I love to be lost

I’m lost in you

I’m still exploring what makes you, you

Your heart is the wonder

Your mind is the splendor

I found, that I love you

I love to be lost, in you